"I feel somewhat unsure of my relationship with Robert. Due to his phone bill being high, we have to cut down on our phone calls. Not that big of a deal you say, but it is in a way. That's mostly our means of communication. I'm sure I could live with it for a couple of weeks or so, but who knows what will happen in the near future. Will it tear us apart? That's what I'm scared of. Not being able to talk on a daily basis makes me wonder if it'll dampen our relationship. I, sometimes feel like he's neglecting me if we dont talk. Why do I feel this way? It's a known fact that I love him, but why am I even questioning our relationship? Am I having second thoughts about us?"

--- My thoughts have been confirmed. As of May 30, 2002 Robert and I are no more. After three and a half years of being together...all gone. I had a feeling this was going to happen, but I chose to ignore that gut feeling instead. He says he loves me, yet he's not in love with me anymore..whatever that means... He wants to be alone right now...to find himself...to see what direction his life is heading to. I'm hurt, I'm sad...yet I'm angry. I wish I could forget him quickly. I hate crying. I hope I have the strength to get through this. He says once he gets his life together and still wants to get with me, he'll call me. Yea right. Spare me the bullshit. I'm not gonna sit here and wait for his ass. I still think that he's found someone else, but he says that isn't it.